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[05 Sep 2005|08:07pm] |
have you ever felt you screwed up so bad in front of someone you cared about that you felt to ashamed to go up and talk to them?
i feel ive said something so totally stupid and out of character, that ive screwed up any possible relationship me and 'bob' may have had... which sucks. im to scared to go up and talk to him... i avoid him at all costs... just seeing him makes me nervous and want to throw up...
the worst part is... i see him twice a week... he leads worship for my youth group... God told me not to get involved and this is what happens when you dont listen to God.... bad stuff...
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[25 Aug 2005|08:55pm] |
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havent been on this thing in forever, again....
spur 58 is awesome
Jesus is amazing
i somehow always hurt the people i love most without realizing it
somehow they always forgive me
i wouldnt forgive me
but hey...thats me... ill forgive other people but never myself... man i hate it when the devil tells me im not good enough.... its bonoxious.... and makes me sad.... then i remembver Jesus luffs me and i can be tell the devil off.... "why dont you get outta here? cayse i dont wanna see ya face around here no more! why dont you skittle-y-doo cause this is now and now even more cause... you are the devil and the devil is bad *HEY* you are the devil and the devil is bad *HEY* you are the devil and the devil is bad *HEY* you are the devil and YOU ARE BAD!"~ the W's
its so awesome to realize that people might not forgive you... but Jesus always will if you ask Him to... so for now thats all i can do.
www.spur58.com
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[01 Aug 2005|08:27pm] |
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havent been on this thing in forever...
plastic glittery hat in car+ TN summer heat= RIP most awesome (and now melted) hat ever!
still havent told jon i like him... word has it hes going after his ex g/f again... but then another word has it hes going after his best friends little sister... and another word has it hes got a thing for me...
you know when they say people like to gossip about christians its true...just listen to what they say about jon (see above)... *sigh* i think its just best for me to ask him if hes going out with mica again n if he asks why ill just pull what he said to heather 'i just want to know if im wasting my time'... ohhh boy... but then again i took a pic at the beach i went to n i wrote 'miss ya jon' in the sand n took a pic of it and he develops pics at kroger n yea so... was gonna do that like 2moro... *NERVOUS*
its so amazing how God puts stuff on the radio right when i need to hear it. i mean i knew it already, but then i turned on wayfm n the announcer lady started talking about just what i needed to hear from someone else. and it was awesome. and i thank God for that. i feel like i dont talk about God enough... and thats kinda sad...
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[13 Jul 2005|05:47pm] |
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i hope i am "one in particuar"
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[04 Jul 2005|08:30pm] |
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gosh,.... heather tells me theres nothing to worry about "he wants 'to make sure all [hes] doing isnt for nothing!'...youve gone out on a date... he likes you..." but i seriously dont know! im really scared... of everything i dont know... i just want to come clean wednesday... if after youth group during dodgeball hes really flirty with me im just gonna tell him i like him! thats the end of it! i cant take it anymore! i dont remember who said this but i like it "if your not willing to make a fool out of yourself you dont deserve to be in love"... then fine... i will do just that... b/c i like him more than ive liked neother guy ive known. hes special. and i dont care who knows it
i like jon
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[24 Jun 2005|09:13pm] |
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i love how xanga is always crapping out on me.... GRRRRRRR!!! first my comp is gay n wont let me online... so ive used my laptop the piece that it is n now my comp is wprking but myspace is firewalled and the look and feel part of xanga is firewalled n they never have been before and its stupid i hate it royally!
pic of last day of school, camp, and matthew west/ sanctus real concert soon... yea as soon as i get photobucket UNFIREWALLED!!! *SCREAMS INSIDE*
lol yay everyone is back from kids camp... :-D everyone meaning everyone but one person in specific i am happy about being back... O:-)
haha im glad theres richard to cheer me up until 2moro:
MrIxolite0: Hey, Sarah. OF DOOM!
xoTruLOVEwaitSox: its only gonna bring you doom cause you spelled it wrong
MrIxolite0: Sara?
xoTruLOVEwaitSox: yay
MrIxolite0: I'll be jiggered if you said differently.
xoTruLOVEwaitSox: haha jiggered?
MrIxolite0: Yeah, jiggered.
xoTruLOVEwaitSox: whats jiggered.... getting jiggered with it *nahnah nahnah nahnahnah*
<3sara<3
p.s... matthew west(see MW under music) and sanctus real rock my socks...
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[16 Jun 2005|02:02pm] |
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its 4 am and i cant go back to bed
ive heard his voice and i cant get it out of my head
hes awesome n its scares me
i dont know if im ready for something already
but is comforts me that God has a plan
i cast my worries into His hands
this calms me
and now i can go back to sleep~6/13
im putting my mood here bc it wont fit in the tiny box they give you: unworthy, loved, blessed, happy, greatful, flirty, *blushes*, excited, nervous, walled up, unsure, giddy, talkative, HAPPY, anxious, lovestruck, bouncy, cheerful, crazy, ecstatic, jubilant (haha thats my new word), unworthy, remniscent, thankful, unworthy, sgo;unrdfvsitbuignbjk
hehhehheh
<3sara
p.s... the music is copeland.... bc copeland=amazing... but gritty sands are awesome too...
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[03 Jun 2005|09:58pm] |
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today i went to the doctor n i dont need surgery or a brace for my scoliosis :-) which is awesome news i wasnt about to wear one of them brace thingys... HECK NO! so coolio. then me n my mom went to khols n old navy n academy sports to look for a onepiece bathingsuit for me for camp. khols had ugly old lady ones, old navy had ONE!!! (im not talking one type they literally had ONE onepiece hanging up... and with my luck of course it wasnt my size), and i finally got one at academy sports. its ok looking for a one piece so whatever im happy... but at oldnavy was where i really hit the jackpot!!! all my bday presents are as follows: adorable pink flowery peasant skirt, really pretty silky top, 3 other shirts, sunglasses to replace the ones my dad broke, pair of pink sofees (academy sports), and a white tee shirt (academy sports). yea thats pretty good! im sooooo happy! so before camp i gotta have an interview with mrs. box from southside creamery, get waterproof camera, borrow $40 from my mom, laundry, pack, go out with emmy etc, and put new songs on my mp3 player...
applied for a job at southside creamery today... mr box is intimidating, my dad was AnNoYiNg, and i kinda feel like im getting the job b/c my dad knows him n i want to get it on my own merits n my dad made it seem like i wasnt good enough but b/c he knows mr box ill get the job so im really weirded out...*confused*... well thats enough to keep yall for awhile...
<3sara
jun 5... be at church at 1130pm for camp sign in
jun 6... midnight- leave for camp
jun6-10... student life at the beach!! call my cell ill have it with me
jun 9... MY 17TH BDAY!!!! :-D
jun 13... renew my permit (dont ask)
jun 30... get my liscense... oh you dont think i will??? WATCH ME!
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[28 May 2005|09:40pm] |
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somethings in this world you just cant change, somethings you cant see until its too late~ mb20
ive been dismissed by the one i need~mb20
theyre gonna make you like the way they lie better than the truth, theyll tell you everything you wanted someone else to say, theyre gonna break your heart~ mb20
im here for the hard times, the striaght-to-your-heart times, whenever it aint easy you can stand up against me n rely on me n cry on me~ mb20
lead me on again
into something untrue
so i can be happy again
pretending i mean something to you~ 5/26
what was love ever good for besides writing heartbroken poetry?
it was too perfect.... he was to perfect... i shouldve known it would turn out this way... since when do i deserve something like that?
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OH YEAH!!!!! WHOS A SENIOR!!!! IN YO FACE!!!!! BAM!!!
*WHOOOOOOOOOEEEEEEEEE*
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[21 May 2005|09:14pm] |
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Love is the one mistake we never fully learn from. Sure the people we fall in love with get more and more right for us as time moves on, but we never fully learn to avoid it. No matter how many times we get our hearts broken, when the next one comes along, we are convinced they will be different. Love is seeing the imperfect perfectly; yet when we are scared to love, we magnify even the slightest imperfection to find an excuse not to let our guards down. Every time we get our hearts broken, we put up a wall to protect ourselves. Then, we start to love again, we convince ourselves it will be different, we see them perfectly, we let our guards down, deconstruct any walls we put up before-- or perhaps, slip through holes in those walls. Then when we feel on-top-of-the-world, stomach-in-our-throats, look-at-me-I'm- flying, in love… we fall; flat on our faces. We climb wounded back behind those sturdy walls—claiming to never love again—until, cruelly, history repeats itself.
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[11 May 2005|05:31pm] |
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just because they say so... doesnt make it true... i think i have to let you go... but you know i still love you... i wouldnt be doing this if i knew... that everything theyve been telling me... was going to come straight from you... but that i cant see... i wish the only option i had... wasnt to let you go... but holding on has never hurt so bad... that by now you must know... please do something soon... to make me change my mind... im right here in front of you... take a chance this time... tell me that you love me... say you always will... tell me when you hold me... you wish time would stand still... it doesnt matter where... it doesnt matter when... and if there arent any feelings there... i guess its time for this to end
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hey hope everything is going well with you all... i have been preoccupied lately...*thinks* well... ttyl!
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[27 Feb 2005|09:48pm] |
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haha isnt it funny how journal has become a backseat to my xanga?? i love my xanga!!! its so pretty!!!
<3sara
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[20 Feb 2005|08:17pm] |
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well... this has been a niiiiiice weekend!!!! here it all is,
fri-- uhhhhhh school, sleep...
sat-- went to christins, went to emmys to pick up a shirt, went to dance at tylers church, sleep
sun-- church, khols, mall, n now im typing to yall...
lol 'my little brothers arm got caught in the microwave..... my grandma spilled acid.... then she hijaked a bus.... full of penguins.... really family tragedy.... gotta go... bye!' haha.. well something like that ne way *better off dead*
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The rules are you fill out the blanks with MY info - not yours....good luck!
1. My name:
2. Where did we meet?:
3. Take a stab at my middle name:
4. How long have you known me?:
5. When is the last time we saw each other?:
6. Do I smoke? :
7. Do I believe in God? :
8. When you first saw me what was your impression? :
9. Month of my Birthday?:
10. Color hair?:
11. Color eyes?:
12. Do I have any siblings?:
13. What's one of my favorite things to do outdoors?:
14. What's one of my favorite things to do indoors?:
15. Do you remember one of the 1st things I said to you?:
16. What's my favorite type of music?:
17. What is the best feature about me?:
18. Am I shy or outgoing?:
19. Would you say I am funny ha-ha or funny sarcastic?:
20. Am I a rebel or do I follow all the rules?:
21. Would you consider me a friend, an acquaintance, or a good friend?:
22. Would you call me hippie, glam, nerdy, snobby, or something else?:
23. Have you ever seen me cry?:
24. If there were one good nickname for me what would it be?:
25. If I had broccoli stuck in my teeth would you tell me?:
26. What is my favorite color?:
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wheee! well i got my car :-D its a beast...too bad i cant drive yet! *flames come out of ears* well... at least i dont have to ride the bus home every day :-D (thanks tyler!)
i babysat today n do again 2moro... im really tired... 2moro is hannahs 18th bday! WHOA! haha thats kinda old lol. i wish this kid would stop IMing me... *thinks* well i think thats all....
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[11 Feb 2005|10:14pm] |
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well... my day in a nutshell...fight with the rents, computer lab, if i watch milk n cereal one more time..... >:-|, safely late to art *mwahahaha*,napoleon dynomite in chem, ketchup day in english, spanish test 6th, STUPIDOLOGY in precal 7th, tyler drove me home, my dog wet the floor, i drove badly to my gparents house, stop laughing my dog wetting the floor isnt funny, finished everyones valentines, took seventeen.com quiz and registered as sleep deprived and a bad flirt...
yay hannah is coming to sunday school and church!!! :-D
*waiting for 2moro AM* :-D *thanks God*
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[07 Feb 2005|09:04pm] |
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on behalf of my being sick of the name calling, gossip, poor choice of language, lack of judgement, use of obscene anything, disgusting icons, God-bashing, Jesus-bashing... etc.... ive decided to leave the coral springs LJ community. i joined only as a last hope to remain connected to, what i used to call, my hometown. but the community over the course of some time has gotten disgusting. sooo....
i dunno why im posting this... no one cares, a, and b, no one reads this thing ne way!!!!
<3ne one who is reading this!
p.s. CitrusSmoothie88: valentine day is slowly creeping up and im here..alone grr
xoTruLOVEwaitSox: me too
xoTruLOVEwaitSox: we can be alone together
CitrusSmoothie88: lol
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[01 Feb 2005|08:48pm] |
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sandytoez06: hell?
sandytoez06: you mean school?
volley0289: indeed
"what if you spend your whole life follwing a rainbow, to find the pot of gold was on the other end"~ hannah
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